Wallowing in water 7 angst again...
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rainsometimesHere’s something of a downer, I’m afraid, more dark in tone than my stuff tends to be. Feel a bit guilty about posting it, in fact, though not enough not to do so. It’s one of those "I don’t-really-like-this-but-it’s-kinda-interesting" ideas that you can’t quite let go of.
It’s delving into something that might have been on Zoro’s mind during manga chapter 438. I hope this doesn’t come across as Zoro-bashing – I’m fully aware he probably never felt this way in the first place, but even if he did, as I’ve tried to depict it’s just a small part of him that does, one that he wouldn’t accept as the real him - perhaps his inner demon, even.
(Maybe it's because I think that, just as I try not to shy away from unpleasant thoughts here, neither would Zoro?)
Anyway, warning for unnecessary angst and all.
Oh, and it’s in verse.
Desolation
The ship sails on. Explosives fly.
And right then, somewhere deep inside
A small voice, not his usual self,
All dark and hidden, like a splinter,
As sharp as steel and cold as winter,
Speaks words he does not want to heed,
that Maybe this is what we need.
Maybe this is what they need.
A loss like this, cut sharp and deep,
To know they’re men of purpose now,
Of cold resolve, who’ll say and do,
And bear the consequences still,
Who’ll sail on by and not look back,
Because they have decided to,
Though it’s not what they’d like to do.
Abandoners.
To leave behind
The one who couldn’t leave behind
A broken, wounded, dying friend,
Though made of wood and canvas only,
So left himself behind instead,
Fought his captain, lost and bled.
That happened, then.
And this is now.
For he, the swordsman, said he’d go,
And leave his captain, leave him too,
If he won’t listen, won’t be tough,
And hard, and captain-like enough.
‘The choice is made. We can’t back out.
Our hearts will heal, or maybe freeze.
We’ll seek our goals and won’t complain,
Grown harder now to stand the pain,
Won’t have to see him fight and bleed,
And that’s what being pirates means.
And maybe this is what we need.’
He doesn’t like these thoughts. They don’t belong,
don’t feel like his. They will be proven wrong.
He waits and listens. Any moment now.
Tomorrow there will probably be fluffy pics! ^_^
It’s delving into something that might have been on Zoro’s mind during manga chapter 438. I hope this doesn’t come across as Zoro-bashing – I’m fully aware he probably never felt this way in the first place, but even if he did, as I’ve tried to depict it’s just a small part of him that does, one that he wouldn’t accept as the real him - perhaps his inner demon, even.
(Maybe it's because I think that, just as I try not to shy away from unpleasant thoughts here, neither would Zoro?)
Anyway, warning for unnecessary angst and all.
Oh, and it’s in verse.
Desolation
The ship sails on. Explosives fly.
And right then, somewhere deep inside
A small voice, not his usual self,
All dark and hidden, like a splinter,
As sharp as steel and cold as winter,
Speaks words he does not want to heed,
that Maybe this is what we need.
Maybe this is what they need.
A loss like this, cut sharp and deep,
To know they’re men of purpose now,
Of cold resolve, who’ll say and do,
And bear the consequences still,
Who’ll sail on by and not look back,
Because they have decided to,
Though it’s not what they’d like to do.
Abandoners.
To leave behind
The one who couldn’t leave behind
A broken, wounded, dying friend,
Though made of wood and canvas only,
So left himself behind instead,
Fought his captain, lost and bled.
That happened, then.
And this is now.
For he, the swordsman, said he’d go,
And leave his captain, leave him too,
If he won’t listen, won’t be tough,
And hard, and captain-like enough.
‘The choice is made. We can’t back out.
Our hearts will heal, or maybe freeze.
We’ll seek our goals and won’t complain,
Grown harder now to stand the pain,
Won’t have to see him fight and bleed,
And that’s what being pirates means.
And maybe this is what we need.’
He doesn’t like these thoughts. They don’t belong,
don’t feel like his. They will be proven wrong.
He waits and listens. Any moment now.
Tomorrow there will probably be fluffy pics! ^_^
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Date: 2008-07-12 04:48 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-07-13 05:34 pm (UTC)And hard, and captain-like enough.
Niiiice poem. I can completely see Zoro thinking/feeling this. I admit, the Usopp fan that I am, I have a hard time with Zoro because he was so very coldly practical in Water7. I mean, I love Zoro too but I can't help but feeling that he was doing Usopp a bit of a disservice.
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Date: 2008-07-14 05:49 am (UTC)(nods) There are those that have argued it the other way around, but it's hard not to feel something like that, as an Usopp fan. (Argument was, IIRC, that Zoro was actually doing Usopp a service, because if Usopp had been let back into the crew as if nothing had happened, he wouldn't really have felt it was real, or something like that.)
Personally I think it would be easier for me to be okay with Zoro there if he'd been shown more obviously to be upset over Usopp's leaving and concerned for him, as Sanji was, instead of Zoro being even more "MUST NOT SHOW FEELINGS NOW MUST BE TOUGH AND STRONG" than usual through the whole arc. We did see in Enies Lobby that he still cared for Usopp's physical safety a lot, but that's not the same as wanting him to come back into the crew. (deep sigh)
On the other hand I think I may be writing Zoro a lot because he troubles me more than the other Strawhats do for these reasons (and some others), like I'm not completely sure of him.
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Date: 2008-07-14 12:39 pm (UTC)